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the day. I missed them. The poet somehow avoided me. The same was repeated in the evening too. I felt upset. With my helpless poverty, however, there was a modicum of pride in me. My heart declined to stay on such condition. When on the next morning too, I found the shadows still lowering on his countenance, I made up my mind to make up or break away from the place which was no longer a place for me. After the morning classes were over I packed up my little belongings and prepared to leave the place by the afternoon" train if matters did not improve in the meanwhile. At about 2 P. M. I sought him out in his study where he was alone, writing. My manners at the time were abrupt and unceremonious ; because I was desperate. He looked up at me from his papers and waited for me to begin. I began with vehemence demanding the reason for the change in him. I do not remember what I said. The clouds seemed to lift a little. He gave me the cause. The report was all false and I at once demanded to be confronted with the man, the reporter. The downright honesty of my challenge seemed to have a palliative effect on him. There was a returning flicker of cordiality in his looks, ২• •